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i went to bed yesterday around 8 something, i did not think neither everybody or anybody, but someone and something. it is the sweet memories and moments of us reminding me last night. arrrgg! how could i take you out of my mind? my head is aching when i think of you, so was my heart.

i’m  trying to text to you. And don’t have the idea whether to send it or just save it on my drafts. unfortunately, i haven’t even text you.  why should i feel this bitterness and suffering if i was the one who decided about our ‘end’.

from 8o’clock thinking of you,  i realized, it’s almost past 1 a.m. it is still you im thinking of. why such feel this emotions! missing you. grrrrrrr! it’s NOT RIGHT. definitely NOT. at the first place, THERE’S NO MORE YOU AND I.

it’s already 2 a.m. i realized i wanna be with you this time. If i could, i will travel to where you are at no matter what happen to me in the middle of dark streets just to see you and to be with you. [so OA nanaman ba?]

did i regret what ive said and decided? maybe. i’m feeling insane, holding back my tears and keep on telling everyone.. “it’s okay, matigas na to no! wala nang iyak iyak!” . but in the end of the day when i’m alone, i keep talking to myself, why do i have to let you go? answers are, ‘there are many reasons. A LOT.’

but how come do i still love you? why such feel the same feelings as before? why do i keep on thinking of you and missing you?.. would you even care? well, if you don’t care, i also don’t care. wth!.. haha.. seriously, all i knew right now is i do love you. loving you everyday is enough for me to accept you again and again.

I miss you. seriously. A LOT.

mii debut..

atlast.. grown up lady na ko.. with the help of my parents, friends out there.. sama na rin natin sya [special someone], myself who helped myself.. hehe. and lastly, un pinakamahalagang lalake sa buhay ko.. c God..

yeah. . i didnt expect this day na sobrang happy.. actually happy? hmm anu ba opposite ng melancolic? hehe.. yeah that’s what ive felt that day.. may 24, 2008.its not my real birthday actually, siguro naglalabor palang nanay ko ng time na yan.. hehe..

THE WEEK: that week.. mega prepare na kami.. sa venue, sa stuffs, sa invitations, sa foods.. errrm di naman talaga sya totally formal eh.. ayoko nga ng ganon kaformal ehh.. gusto ko simple lang. un inuman hehe.. ayoko nawawala sa bday ko un . hekhek..

THE DAY: yeah! this is the day.. although im the bday celebrant, di ako paprinsesa effect nuh.. tumutulong pa rin ako sa pagluluto. hehe. not that much.. mejo may aberya nga lang nung time na un.. kse uminit ulo ng mother ko nagwala,. hehe Y_Y iyak mode ako . pati ako ko. kumakain kmi ng lunch umiiyak mther ko, pati ako tpos pati ate ko, pati na din si nanay sita.. awww so sad that time.. pero naging ok din afterwards.. hehe ..

4:30 SUMTHING: yeah.. 4:00 ang usapan na pupunta mga dabarkads ku kse 6 ang umpisa eh hindi naman dito gaganapin, sa resort sa bulacan gaganapin.. aun 4:30 andito na sila.. eh wala pa un jeep namin.. and wala pa un fther ko na siya magiging guide papunta dun.. dyahe sa mga barkads ku.. aga2 nila wat tym na kami nakaalis.. hehe..

around 6:30 or 7 na aa kami nakaalis nun.. eh ang start ng party ko is 6pm waw! ang byahe mula here sa caloocan hanggan g sa bulacan and the time na gagamitin sa pagpreprepare for thy selves.. hehe..

8:30 or SUMTNG: nsa bulacan na kami nasa venue na.. waaah.. aberya nanaman! its raining men! i thought di tumalab un pagaalay ko ng good weather sa altar kamina.. hehe.. and den.. maya2 nung magiistart na.. ok! na .. heh..

FORMAL PARTY: woootz! =] *looking that jeans with the boots of my pearl.. yeah!* low low low.. i always hear that song playing. and saw everyone parang escited pa kesa sakin.. awww natattz aku! yeah! .. nung andun na nung nagentrance ako.. my escort that time is my father.. then sent me to my real escort [abeth] .. woootz.. formal tlaga lahat ah.. hehe.. i admired everyone / so formal. un mga guy friends which i thought di naman magllongsleeve.. yeah! anganda tignan ng lahat.. i didnt act myself na very important person hehe.. ako pa rin un.. ala nagbago.. unlike others na porket birthday eh papansin.. nyahaha. hate it.. after 18 roses, dinner time, 18 gifts, 18 candles and 18 wines.. picture taking.. *kelan ba autograph signing..?* hahah.. said ng kuya json ko[bf ni ate].. eh panu ba naman di na ko natapos kakapicture taking hehe.. mii day nga pala un.. di kse ako snay na gnon. hehe. after that formal attireness effect chorva..

*OKAY! PWEDE NA KAYONG MAGBIHIS FOR THE POOL PARTY!* yeaaaaah!,,, (with the bground music again…*LOW LOW LOW LOW LOW*)

POOL PARTY/ INUMAN SESSIONS: ayun.. its so fun being with everyone.. mas gusto ko talaga un maramihan.. siguro nga groupist person ako.. obvious naman deba?.. hikhik.. pag nalalasing na, magbabad nalng sa pool para tanggal un lasing.. hehe.. angsaya pag magpipicture.. mga sabikis sa kamera.. lahat gusto sa gitna.. nagiging wacky tuloy un datin.. ehehe.

aun after that day.. hekhek.. mejo lakas ng amats ko.. super happy ako.. as in. its my day.. although its not the actual birthday, nafeel ko naman na its already may 28 [my real birthdate]… aun dun na natapos lahat2.. super happy..

CREDITS WHY A EM SO HAPPY: to my GOD, my parents, to my family, to my friends, to my Godparents, to my special someone[u know hu u are..], to my self..

me.. blogging for now..

its too late na siguro para iblog un sa star city..
date sa star city hehe.. most of the time kse pag nagpupunta kmi ng star city kasama un parents ko.. may chaperon kami.. and i hate it! haha.

aun.. after few gossip talks with my hon, nagdecide kmi na magpunta sa park.. wala kami iba mapuntahan.. majo nauumay na kme sa mall eh. haha ^__^. [yeah that's true..]

so that’s the final decision sa wildlife kami.. then, nung nasa bus na, we decided na maglunch na muna sa  sm north but we’re too late na para magpara sa paramount hehe.. so. ang nangyari sa trinoma kmi naglunch.. after gumala sa trinoma, lumakad na kami papunta sa sakayan, nagbago nanaman isip namin.. haha. [yeah..so funny that time..pabago2 isip namin..] . naisipan namin magstar city ewan ko ba.. hehe..

ang tagal ng byahe namin hehe… grabe ang sakit na sa pwet kaya..

then we reached starcity finally.. anlungkot ang onte ng tae.. pero nung mga hapon na.. sumaya na.. hehe..madae ng tae..

LESSON HERE: if you’re in a place with people almost counted by your fingers, parang kj ang dating hhehe.. pansin ko lng.. kaya pala "Humayo kayo at magpakarami"..YIKES! yun pala un.. kse pag mas marami, mas masaya.. pero i wonder?.. bakit kahit isa lng kasama ko.. kahit sya lang.. i bacame happy kagaya ng pagigigng happy pag marami kasama ko..

ganon ba un?.. errrm di ko magetz. isa lang sya compared sa marami pero masaya na ako.. hehe =]

aun.. after an hour natapos din un graduation day ni ate.. di dapat ako sama kse mgkaaway kme..kso c tatay ko pinagalitan pa ko.. ayun sumama nlng ako.. nung andun na mejo di ko sya makausap kso ngbago din kse inasikaso ku sya .. alamu un khit glit kme andun pa din un "kapatid ko..graduate na.." so parang ok na ko di na ko glit skanya..

aun nung andun na sila pumunta muna ko ng mall pra bilhan ng gift man lng.. and nung tpos na.. around 10 na ata natapos..ng gabi huh.. nung pumunt n sya samn..ngpicture2 kme..naiiyak nga ku..kse naalala ko ung grad ko nung high school..kamiss ung barkada ko.. parang ako din naaalala ko panu na ko gragraduate neto heheh..

aunmejo kapagud.. feeeling ko graduate n din ako.. hahah..kaingget grumaduate heheh..

heheh.. yesterday, wednesday, nagassist ako sa medical/dental mission dito sa lugar namen. mejo busy din yun naging part ko. dun ako naassign sa registration. grabeths, super haba ng pila ng mga tao. i’ve realized na tlgng kelangan din pla ng mga ganto sa bawat lugar kase un mga tao na walang pampadoctor ^^, aun.

after listing down of never endings names, addresses, age sex etc. and giving form, aun nanakit ang kalyo ku.hehe. nabakante n din ako, and saw one of the senator sponsored the said mission. ^^, c sen. zubirri. and u know what, heheh, while registering a patient, pinakilala kme ng kagawad, my co-assistants eh nahihiya, ng-hi ako sakanya, and he said, "hi! thank you sa pagtulong nio ah!" tpos ako ang una niang kinamayan..heheh..

after we eat and sen.zubirri was about to leave, syempre di maiiwasan ng mga tao and kodakan ^^, eh nsa harapan ko sya.. sakto! ako katabi nia en akbay2 heheh..

and nung pinatulong naman ako sa pagbibigay ng gamot, mejo shy ako dat tym kase nakamic pa ko while mentioning names of the patient hehhe. sarap pala ng feeling magactive sa mga ganto ee..

well, credits to my mother for referring me na magassist and magvolunter dun sa mission na un..

^^,

kaso lng..  monthsarry namen , feeling ko ng nawalan ako tym for him, so since andun naman sya sa bahay namen, after ko mgbigay ng gamot uwi n kagad ako, and nagdate nlng kme til 9pm..heheh halos masaraduhan n nga ng sm eh..

pero masaya..

^^,

abEthq..pAre kO reAd its 4U..=) Love u pare pakiss nga..hehhe

he told me ‘iloveyou’..

‘iloveyoutoo..’

setting:gateway, cubao-cineplex..(tambay mode kmi with his emo friends..)

we’re talking about my luxuries then biglang napunta dun bout s necklace which he gave to me nung monthsari dapat nmin but ndi kmi nakapagkita nun, nung january nia binigay..

back to dat day, we fought dat day.. ngaway pa kmi. i remembered n galit tlg kmi but in the end eventually we’re fine n..then tumambay kmi.. and then sbi nia.. ‘bhey, my bibigay ako sau..’ then binigay nia un necklace..i wondered bkit nia ko bngyan nun wla naman occassion un pla pra s monthsari namin un.. aun..gnoN lng db..very simple right? (but i dont expect n for the best way n ibibigay nia un.).. nakatambay kmi s harap ng field ng school namin.. kse usually dun kmi tumatambay together with my friends..so aun.

but this time dhil napagusapan nmin un.. siningit nia na

"dpat bibigay ko un sau sa gitna ng field eh..kso ayaw mo naman nglalakad s field eh.."

babaw right?..but for me napakasweet nun..corny is sweet..:)

di ba? if ever na ginawa nia un.. it’ll really touch my heart..kso msyado tkot na magalit din ako dun nia nalng bnigay..but ok na din un..cra na naman un kwintas eh..*suwee bhey*..

nakakatuwa isipin n ganon pla balak nia dat day.. eh kung pumayag ako maglakad s field e di napasweet nun..kso ang arte ko tlg..

Take my handWe’ll walk a while,We’ll talk a while.Feel my love,Always there beside youBe the oneI know you’ll tell me everythingYou are the oneI cherish more than anything.CHORUSI love you more than you’ll ever knowI love you more than you’ll ever seeMore than my heart could ever showI love you more than you’ll ever know.Think of meAnd know that I’ll believe in youThere’ll always beThe precious time together.With every tearA love so strongNo words could ever sayA love to last forever..Take my handWe’ll walk a while,We’ll talk a while.Feel my love,Always there beside youBe the oneI know you’ll tell me everythingYou are the oneI cherish more than anything

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