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i went to bed yesterday around 8 something, i did not think neither everybody or anybody, but someone and something. it is the sweet memories and moments of us reminding me last night. arrrgg! how could i take you out of my mind? my head is aching when i think of you, so was my heart.

i’m  trying to text to you. And don’t have the idea whether to send it or just save it on my drafts. unfortunately, i haven’t even text you.  why should i feel this bitterness and suffering if i was the one who decided about our ‘end’.

from 8o’clock thinking of you,  i realized, it’s almost past 1 a.m. it is still you im thinking of. why such feel this emotions! missing you. grrrrrrr! it’s NOT RIGHT. definitely NOT. at the first place, THERE’S NO MORE YOU AND I.

it’s already 2 a.m. i realized i wanna be with you this time. If i could, i will travel to where you are at no matter what happen to me in the middle of dark streets just to see you and to be with you. [so OA nanaman ba?]

did i regret what ive said and decided? maybe. i’m feeling insane, holding back my tears and keep on telling everyone.. “it’s okay, matigas na to no! wala nang iyak iyak!” . but in the end of the day when i’m alone, i keep talking to myself, why do i have to let you go? answers are, ‘there are many reasons. A LOT.’

but how come do i still love you? why such feel the same feelings as before? why do i keep on thinking of you and missing you?.. would you even care? well, if you don’t care, i also don’t care. wth!.. haha.. seriously, all i knew right now is i do love you. loving you everyday is enough for me to accept you again and again.

I miss you. seriously. A LOT.